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Up until may 2004 i had a stable life, it was nowhere near perfect yet it also wasn't all that bad. On may 20th
2004 i gave birth to my son (ben) although the problem was i didnt no i was pregnant, i had been living back at my parents
for a couple of weeks, after a relationship break up. My parents live in a bungalow so i knew that once i came out of hospital
i wouldn't be able to go back there as there was not enough space. That day should have been a happy day for me after
all i did have a son. I was in so much shock i just didnt know what was going to happen from then onwards, i couldnt
even really look at ben, this took me qiute a while to get used to him, i suppose at first i did reject him. The one thing
that never crossed my mind was having him adopted,as much as a shock it was, i just knew i couldnt do that (i am glad now
as i really dote on him). I stayed in hospital for 5 days while a social worker tried to find somewhere for me to stay. When
i came out of hospital the social worker took me and ben to the place where she had found me to stay. I went into borrowash
house (a womens refugee), which at first i was very upset about, not because of the place, but because of the situation, i
felt so low at this point, i just couldnt understand how things had got this bad. After being in borrowash house for a couple
of weeks i started to get to know some of the other women, i found that all of these were in simular sorts of situations as
mine. As time went on i did start to feel a little bit better in myself, the only thing that was still making me feel really
down was, i was told i would only have to wait a maximum of 12 weeks for a council house, only it turned out i had to wait
over 9 months, only now april 2005 things are really starting to pick up for me again. I have bonded really well with my son
now and would never be without him, i have my daughter who is 3, and i am in a new relashionship, who has been brilliant with
me through my hardest times, i have so much to thank him for, after all he was and is always there for me whenever i need
a shoulder, i know i could never be without him in my life as he is the one who always makes me feel better about myself.
THANK YOU MARK XXX
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